Only one regret....

We can't know why some things happen
But we can know that love and beautiful memories out stand the  pain of grief
That there is a place inside the heart where love lives always...
And where nothing beautiful can ever be forgotten.
                                   - Games 1987


When I started this blog I had only one rule - Never talk about a particular person. Today, I am going to break that rule. But, I am sure it is for someone worth it. The rationale behind doing this is the following. I am not someone who can talk about her emotions easily. I am not a very emotional, touchy-feely, huggie kinda person. Being the practical person that I am I have always looked at people parting ways as a good thing, as a decision they've made for their own good. I am rarely (and i say rarely giving myself the benefit of the doubt even though I cannot remember a single scenario when this happened) sad when a friend moves on. The only people who are capable of making me teary eyed are maybe my very close family and I don't usually cry infront of them either. Being the paranoid person that I am if I wait another day to frame my thoughts properly I might not do it at all. So, lets do it when the iron is hot, emotions are high, adrenaline is rushing. I could have said these things to her in person but I blame it on my not so 'huggie' personality. I could have written an email to her but in her own words - "if I write this on the blog it will become permanent like an engraving on the wall". And I am still sure I will not be able to do justice to what I feel right now.

Meet Ms. X. She worked at my workplace till today. My husband believes that the story of how I met her warrants a post. But, am not sure this blog is a place for such delicate secrets to be revealed. Let us just suffice to say that it was one of those interesting conversations we girls have about peers, colleagues and our bosses in the girls loo. We got talking and there has been no looking back ever since then.

She is a strong, independent, fiery, emotional, loving, lovable, beautiful, caring, carefree girl. Someone who has her head on her shoulders, is passionate about her work, loves being with people, makes friends easily, is quite an emotional fool at times, has a 'i-give-a-damn-attitude', and then again cares about someone's smallest whim, easily misunderstood and then again much appreciated. Our own bundle of joy is full of contradictions. Not all good things come in small packages (unlike yours truly).

She is someone I respect for her convictions, her strengths, her ability to accept and work on her weaknesses, her willingness to go out of her way to help, the ease with which she believes in people and trusts them, again her strength to fight for something she believes in not worrying about the consequences. A true representative of the women of today (like yours truly :)).

We've had an amazing time together. I will miss the long, interesting and inspiring coffee breaks at work. The laugh out loud riot sessions we've had in the loo. The lovely discussions we had about our work, peers, colleagues, bosses that have helped us vent our frustration and anger and try and cope with the mean, ugly, wicked man's world out there. 

People at work have been so curious about how we met and what we talk about since we've never worked in the same team together. I have always told her that people in office believe we are having an affair. And today I have no qualms accepting this
"haan humko mohobat hai, mohobat hai mohobat....
ab dil mein yehi baat idhar bhi hai udhar bhi..". 
I love you darling. I always will. :-)

Dear X, I might not say this enough number of times out loud but you cannot even begin to imagine how much inspiration I have always got from you. We are so different and yet so alike. If I may take the liberty to say so, in you I've always seen me, your reactions have always made me remember how I have reacted in a similar way. Being your friend has been a high point in life and having you in life an achievement.  

I am sure that this is not the end of this wonderful journey together. I am sure we will meet again soon. I will always cherish the time we've spent together. I am happy for you and wish you the very best in this new phase of life. I have but this one regret that I met you only about a year back. We've both been at the same workplace for so long and never really met. So we will have to make up for the lost time in the future. 

I've always believed in fairy tales. I believe that soulmates exist and that we can have more than one soulmate at a time. Friends I have many, soulmates few. You, dear, are surely a God's gift as a friend and soul mate.

"haath choote bhi toh rishte nahi chorda karte
waqt ki shaak se lamhe nahi toda karte..."

Wish you and your darling hubby a great life together. Love you both!

xoxoxox
V
(hubby darling too :-p)




Comments

Manu said…
Honey... you must remember... this world is nothing but a mirror and what you see in it is always a reflection of yourself... your own principles... your beliefs... and your heart!! My mother taught me this and I so totally agree ... that you find happiness outside if and only if you have happiness inside you..!! You would find someone beautiful only when you have that beautiful heart..!!

And people who know you would agree that you definitely have a heart of gold and you have that strength of character...!! So if you could understand and discover the real Ms.X.. the credit is all yours...!!

I am not sure if she is as great as you have described her but then I must admit that having you as her friend definitely makes her special..!!

Have you ever wondered ...as I have at times that why is it that from among the millions... there are only these handful who become are 'friends'... and of these few... there are one or two rare ones who are keepsakes for the life?? The answer lies in our own eyes... and in our own heart...!!

The combination works... not the entity...!! It is about completing ... complementing.. and connecting... and yes... that is what makes the soul-mates ..who can complete... complement and connect...!!

Love you...Gurl... for your beautiful writing... !!